Here's some facts and background information about me. (Revised 2/13/2003.)


main website: zenfish.blogspot.com

Born on 30 May 1984. Which would make me 18.

That would make my astrological sign out to be Gemini. Mmm, twins.

Height: 5'10"

Weight: ca. 175, probably more now, but still less than a year ago

Hair color: near black

Eye color: hazelish with red flecks

Home state: TN

My current home and alma mater: Tennessee Technological University

Major: pre-law, by way of political science

Number of lawyer relatives: 2...and they're married

High school GPA: 3.67

Current college QPA: 3.78

Current list of personal products: Clean & Clear facial cleanser, Phisoderm body wash, Amplify big-ass bottle shampoo, Right Guard XTreme Sport deodorant gel, Vital Care hair gel (not that I use it often anymore), Crest whitening toothpaste, Mach 3 Turbo razor

I wear thin, oval-ish, black glasses.

Computer: Dell Inspiron 2650 laptop

Random fact #1, as seen in archives of regular site: I've had two car wrecks. In order for my parents to remain insured, they had to drop me like a live grenade. I miss driving. In fact, that's the one thing that I miss most. People? Sure, yeah, I'd miss many of them...but as much as I miss self-mobility? I'm not so sure.

States I've been in: TN, AL, MD, VA, DC

Favourite colour: black

Random fact #2: last summer, I went to this Governor's School for the Humanities. I enjoyed it, there were some amazing people...yet I've done a piss-poor job of keeping in touch with them. I think that some of the people there probably assumed that I didn't fully appreciate being there or that I was sort of out of place. The former is false, the latter, not so much.

Religious affiliation: Buddhiccan...Buddhist Wiccan, in other words.

Political affiliation: generally liberal, except in cases of spending

Things I do: write, talk, listen, try a little creativity, drum around, try to convince myself that I can write songs, ponder, walk

What I can't do very well: swim, skate

Waist size: 34-36, depending

Musical ability: varied percussion, very limited piano, 2.5 guitar chords, and I'm not tone deaf, at least.

Number of people I've threatened to kill: 1

Number of CDs I own: 522 and rising

Song referenced in title: Sympathy For The Devil by the Rolling Stones

Yes, that is the best song by the Rolling Stones, and one of the top...25 ever, I'd guess.

Famous person I would most likely be able to rationalize being reincarnated from: John Lennon

Total number of songs I have on CD by the Beatles, including solo work: 301

Random fact #3: I am an ex-marching-band-person. I was a drummer, in fact, and I'll be helping with their band camp later this month.

Graduated from high school: 20 May 2002, 8pm

Random fact #4: I have way too many items of clothing. For example, let's take coats and jackets: I have a leather coat, a leather blazer, a pleather motorcycle jacket, a suitjacket, a silver raincoat, 3 denim shirt-jacket-things, a Letter Carrier jacket, a brown suede coat, and my band windbreaker...that's 11. Which is about 9 more than one would need. I have 6 pairs of flipflops and sandals. It's a bit ridiculous.

I am currently doing work study in the TTU motor pool.

Amount of $$ in and around my wallet: $157.00

The saddest song ever: It's Not Easy Being Green by Kermit the Frog

Number of PEZ dispensers I own: 112

Fifteen things I own:
-a green Buddha candle, never to be lit
-a blue lava lamp
-a Zen garden, which was a gift from Sarah
-a brown mini-refrigerator, which I stole from my sister
-a pair of fake leather pants
-a wand which Kristi made from a tree limb, some copper wire, beads, a rose petal and a feather
-a set of SSgt stripes from one of my grandfather's uniforms
-a necklace made out of a bone with a dragon carved into it
-a large mosaic poster of the Beatles
-a rubber band ball, originally a tennis ball wrapped in an unknown quantity of rubber bands
-a candle holder depicting a crucified Jesus
-a set of bongos
-a "Yellow Submarine" musical-spinning-thing
-an old translucent yellow Jerry Lee Lewis record, a gift from Jerzie
-a clock with Chinese letters around the dial

Random fact #5: I seem to look for every attractive feature that a person has. I like to be able to list them, maybe. That's all I have to say about that.

I have to write a book. For myself.

If it weren't for making those damned meal plans a requirement, I could go to college for free.

Here's something you never wanted to know: I was circumsized after birth, but not for religious reasons. So, it was rather needless, I think. I mean, as far as I know a foreskin never hurt anybody. I think it shouldn't be a reccommended practice.

I can't even name one or two of my first cousins.

The first cousins I can name, in descending age: Debbie, Sharon, Steve, Mike, John Garretson, Jimmy Dale, Angela, John Perry, Marty, Kim, Andrew, Lori, Nicole, Danielle.

I am pathetically under-traveled. I blame it on my parents, because they're crazy old shut-ins, and they like it that way...

Okay, so yes, my dad did have a serious car wreck 10 years ago. He was badly injured, and it took a while to recover. Aside from a lot of pain and a looming knee replacement, he's okay now.

So, okay. For a while there we had good reason not to be jaunting around on vacations. But they're still loony old shut-ins, that's a definite.

My father works in the payroll & accounting department at TVA. My sister teaches 4th grade at the nearest elementary school. My mother hasn't worked since the 1980 census.

Random fact #6: I am paranoid about my relationships with people. I assume sometimes that there is no one who is as close to me as I am to them, that to the people whom I consider my closest friends, I'm more of a close acquaintance. I know that I'm full of shit, but I do a good job of convincing myself of this. Once or twice, the paranoia is warranted, and that's enough for me.

Based on my readings of psychology texts and this test I took on the internet that fit too closely for comfort, I have a pretty hefty schizotypal personality disorder. This entails that I have problems with conversation because I have an odd pattern of speech, I occasionally have delusions about things in my life (see fact #6), I regularly engage in overly compulsive behavior. So, hmmm, here's what I think...doesn't every human have some series of flaws that could make up a diagnosable disorder?

My shoe size: 12-13, depending

As I type this right here, it is really the twentieth of July, and I've just kept clicking edit in order to continue.

As I revise this in some cases, it is really the thirteenth of February, 2003.

What I have consumed, semi-chronologically based on first experience:
alcohols: whiskey, tequila, vodka, gin, wine, malt liquor, rum, Hard Lemonade (along with other tasty yet weak drinks of the such), Bacardi 151; cigarettes; speed; cocaine; various painkillers, muscle relaxers, and sleeping pills; marijuana

Everything in life can be blamed on me, if you're creative enough.

Random fact #7: I collect pens and mechanical pencils.

The shirt I've bought most recently: a white dress shirt

Favourite soft drink: SunDrop

What I'm eating for dinner tonight, Sunday, July 21: spaghetti

Number of screennames currently in my AIM buddy list: 56

THE SEVENTEEN THINGS I WON'T DO:
1. I will not help a person commit suicide. (However, if they're going to do it anyway, I'll respect that. I'll still try to help them through their problems. But I'm only going to do what I can.)
2. I will not purposefully end a useful creature.
3. I will not become seriously involved with anyone before I'm out of law school.
4. I will not own a tarantula, or otherwise be around one. (Or look at one, if I can help it.)
5. I will not be stuck in a routine that isn't what I want out of life.
6. I will not approve of or commit adultery, at least until the circumstances have been properly reviewed. And I don't just mean this to refer to the legal definition of adultery, but also to those seriously dating.
7. I will not let my friends and close acquaintances go against their own principles or partake in things that will needlessly mess with their lives. Which is to say that everyone needs a good fucking-with sometimes for life to be balanced and live-able. I'm just not going to stand by and let things get over-balanced.
8. I will not be a puppet to the whims of others.
9. I will not inject heroin. (I might not do any more drugs, ever, but that I WILL NOT do. It's just bad.)
10. I will not, ever, be peaceful towards the Olsen twins. EVER.
11. I will not accept stupidity.
12. I will not limit my options.
13. I will not do what I don't want to do out of sympathy. (Unless it would be for the best for everyone.)
14. I will not abandon my beliefs.
15. I will not help others to be illusioned. (However, if it's funny, I might reconsider. That's mean, isn't it?)
16. I will not lose expensive things. (And if they're stolen or lost anyway, I'll be majorly pissed.)
17. I will not have sex without a condom. Well, ok, I wont have sex without a condom if there is a chance of pregnancy, disease, or discomfort. Is that clear enough for you?

I am decidedly pro-choice.

I have a problem listening to organized prayer in many situations.

I do not find it patriotic to simply agree with your government, no matter what. It angers me to hear someone argue a point based only on whether the president is a member of their favored political party, or their family believed such things. I do not believe that the right things are accomplished the majority of the time.

I intend to do everything.